This is such a perfect example of the average American consumer's ignorance.

"The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes."

- Marcel Proust

I wish that I was half as interesting as I was in Vienna, haha. It was so much easier to be entertaining when my mind was constantly being stimulated and I was fascinated with the world around me.

These days, I've been watching (and re-watching) True Blood and eating too much Taco Bell and wondering why I'm not magically getting thin.

As of today, however, I only have two more weeks in Chattanooga! I'm leaving for my road trip then, and I'm really excited to start that adventure. From there I'm going straight back to Lipscomb, and so I'm stressing out about getting everything ready for the next few months (essentially) in such a short amount of time!

It's also only one week until my birthday month (and birthday week) so I am excited! Still 12? Maybe. :)

I'll be dead before you put a gun in my brothers' hands.

I really love my ugly dog. I consider her a so-ugly-she's-cute dog, but Clay disagrees. To each his own. Her name's Lucy and when she wakes up her beard is always crooked.

Today I learned that I've been saying a phrase wrong my entire life. I'm pretty sure this happens to everyone at some point, and I'm grateful that at least it's only this one thing that I've always said incorrectly. For some reason I thought the phrase was "for all intensive purposes" ... but alas, I was wrong. It's "for all intents and purposes". Who knew? :)

I'm rekindling my love for Brand New. It had never gone away by any means, I just hadn't paid enough attention to it lately. But Mr. Lacey, I missed you.

"If you were coming in the fall, I'd brush the summer by..."

Today was a wonderful day. I went on a platonic lunch date with Zack Jones & realized I've missed him way too much over the past two years. It's weird how college can make you grow apart from your best friends from home extremely unintentionally. We even went to the mall afterward and SHOPPED which really is a struggle for me, apparently, and I'm blowing my road trip money. But it was really fun and I just needed to hang out with an old friend.

We walked around downtown Chattanooga, too, by the art museum and the aquarium fountains. I adore that part of town - if I ever live in Chattanooga again, I hope I can live down there. It's so beautiful and it feels alive. I hope I can always live somewhere with a constant buzz of energy.

Then I called Jordan Lewis & talked to her on the phone for nearly an hour. It was so great and I don't even like talking on the phone! I've just really missed my friends this summer and I loved being able to talk to her about life & God & worries & excitement for the future. It keeps me excited about being alive.

But Nashville, I cannot wait to see you again.

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Okay, this is how great my day was - today, I found out that two of my dear friends have been saying some pretty hurtful and gossipy things behind my back, but all of the positives so made up for it that this is the first time I've even THOUGHT about that in a good 12 hours.

That's what I call a successfully joyful day - when the good so overwhelms the bad that you practically forget about it.

"Love is a harsh and dreadful thing to ask of us, but it is the only answer." - Dorothy Day

I can't believe my family and I have been home from Disney for nearly an entire week. As an almost twenty year old, is it sad that I would rather go on vacation there than anywhere else in the U.S.? I mean not that there aren't places I want to go here - I want to go and experience practically everywhere here and across the world, but there's just something about Disney World that has always made me happy, and hopefully it will continue to. Maybe it's the fact that I can walk down Main Street USA with Aladdin and Jasmine walking in front of me, holding hands. Maybe it's that I love food, and so getting something from nearly everywhere in Epcot is insanely satisfying for me. It just feels magical now the same way that it did when I was seven, and I hope it always does.

Also, growing up kind of sucks. It's kind of awesome, but it kind of sucks.

Somebody is probably going to want to cut my fingers off for typing the word "sucks". Emily has been entertaining us all lately with her "Euphemism! Euphemism!" jokes and so now I'm super aware (and I super don't care). People will find anything to get worked up over.

My heart literally breaks every time I go through Vienna pictures. That's why I don't do it often. Wonderful things have happened to me this year, but I feel like I'm walking around in a bubble and can't be filled with joy anymore.

I know it isn't true.

It just feels so strange.

"Affection is responsible for nine-tenths of whatever solid and durable happiness there is in our lives." - C.S. Lewis

Here's to another night of trying to really push myself to stay awake. I haven't had my morning coffee in nine days, and the prospect of another morning without it makes me want to never even fall asleep so that I don't have to try to wake up without it.

Yes, I've been waking up at one in the afternoon because of this. Oh, how little time I have left to be so wasteful.

I am absurdly hot right now but only using the sheets on my bed. At least it helps me stay awake. I don't know if opening my window on a summer night would make things better or worse - at least I'd get to hear the night sounds, which is generally better and less conducive to my nighttime paranoia than silence.

Having so much alone time lately forces me to think. I try to fill my time with Sex and the City or Facebook, but apparently my mind is incredibly capable of fighting off shallow, fluffy things and bombarding me with "bigger picture" issues, such as the Anti-Homosexuality bill in Uganda (which makes me sick to my stomach) or gender roles or small-minded religion (and my open-minded pride).

Sometimes I wish I could turn my brain off and not think so much.